Listen all ya'll it's a sabotage!!!

I can't stand it I know you planned. Well that's what I keep telling my body. I can't seem to get to my first 100lbs. I keep eating the cakes and ice cream and not tracking like I need to. I also got some bad finacial news on friday so now I'm going to spend my vacation week worried about that. I need to get it togther for real. I did a night drill tonight with my local CERT team and I'm tired. I'll write more later.

Oh Yeah!! That's the stuff!!

I have finally gotten back to my previous weight. It took a month, but I'm back on my way. I'm ready for my 5k. Been walking my azz off literally. Work sux more than ever!! Gotta get out. I'm so ready to get to my 100lbs. Then I'll have only few pounds to lose. I'll write more later.

What the hell!!!

Okay. I gained 5 lbs this week. WTF. I have to stop this. I am so scared of gaining this weight back and I am already over 4 pts today so I'm done eating. I'm going back to basics and will be reading the week 4 booklet from WW. I did my walk today and I signed up to do a 5k next month. I'm feeling better and my headaches are so much better. I still feel something may be wrong with me, but I want think it through as to what step I want to take next. Anyway now I will be going into training mode for my 5k. Tomorrow I will be cooking mexican and will have to reign myself in and not over eat. Work sux, but I'm trying to be positive and thankful I have a job. I want to really spend sometime this weekend thinking about what I want to do in the future case this ain't it. Well I gotta go. Getting up early for my walk. TTFN.

Can't shake my style!!!

Well everything is going fine with me. I'll be going back to the Dr. tomorrow and I don't really expect any resolution to my problem. Today during my walk I decided to be thankful for what I have and not worry so much about what could be wrong to me. Even if something is really wrong with me I want to be happy today, and not worry about what could be coming tomorrow. So on that note I want to talk about finding a new job. I have discovered that I truly work in the "Hell Mouth" (been watching alot of Buffy lately), so anyway I want to find something fulfilling to do, so I have been looking for something that would let me do that. My current job is soul sucking and I just don't want to do it anymore. So I will continue with my weight loss journey and even though I gained a little this week that may be a good thing. When I was depressed I didn't want to eat, but I am getting my appetite back so I'll take this weight gain. Did good on my excercise this week and I'll probably skip tomorrow since I'll be walking on saturday for the official ribbon cutting for my favorite new trail. I love walking and I'm thinking about getting ready for a 5k next month. Well until later. Me.

Soooooooo!

Yeah it's been a long time since I have posted at this rate I'll have 11 by the end of the year, I guess. Well I have been going through a lot, both physically and mentally, so my focus has been there. I had pain in my hip joints from overdoing it and what I found out is a congenital defect in my hip bone and had to take a step down from my excercise. Needless to say that really upset me and I am supposed to be doing physical therapy, but I can't even afford that right now and let me tell you why. I had my first true migraine about two weeks ago and it scared me so bad with that I went to the Dr.'s. After an expensive CT Scan, that I had to paid for, and several Dr.'s appointments I found out that I need glasses and that I was in a severe depression. I have gone to the and gotten some of what I like to call "it's alright" medicine, so we'll see how I do. I feel like I'm getting back to myself and that's good. I started back excercising after taking a week and a half off and it feels great. I think excercise is good for my soul and it made me sadder when I could muster the energy to do it. So that's why I haven't blogged. I try to do more as I think it's good for me. I did lose weight, but I wouldn't recommend it.

That's what I was telling you before!!!

Okay. Do I have to say how I lack follow through. It has nearly been a month since my last post. I guess I feel that I don't have anything relevant or witty to say, so why say anything. I guess I should just use this for my personal pleasure and if anybody wants to read then they can. So any way, I have really been struggling lately with my commitment to losing weight. I stayed in the 250lbs range for two months. I finally feel like I'm back on track though. I wish I could say that I am as confident as I was back in October '09. You couldn't have told me that I would have gotten to this point. I guess I should just appreciate that my will stayed so long. Even though I do Weight Watchers I still weigh my self daily and this morning I weighed 244.1 this morning. I hope this isn't some trick my body is playing on me. Well I guess that's it for now. Until next time.

Let's get it started!!

Just wanted to get at least one post in. Opened this page over 6 months ago, but I never followed through. Well this year I am working on following through on things I start. This will not only be for my weight loss, but for all those other projects I have started and stopped. I consider myself a little bit of a crafter too ,and will probably blog about that from time to time. My main focus will be weight loss since it seems to occupy so much of my life right now. Well TTFN.